Where
do you place the feeling of "I"? The place where one puts the feeling
of "I" more mechanically is the place where one is more identified.
If we could place this feeling of "I" in "self-remembering", we would
not identify ourselves. But this action is a conscious act, because
nobody can remember himself in a mechanical way. Self-remembering is
a conscious act, a conscious positioning of "I" that requires attention.
A
person can be totally identified with his inner state; he can feel simply
depressed or angry and being simply his state. Then, his feeling of
"I" and his state are one and the same thing. This is called inner identification.
He is identified with himself. His feeling of I is placed in his mood.
Let us suppose now that he watches his state from a distance, the feeling
of I would be placed elsewhere. This requires, among other things, attention.
Attention puts us in the most conscious part of the centers. When we
identify with an inner state and we observe it, we stop being automatically
identified.
In
this work we use the non-identification as a powerful instrument, which
can reveal a new feeling of I to us, yet is an instrument that has to
be developed by its own use. The transformation or the glimpse of another
thing is very difficult if we are continuously identified with what
we come across. It is necessary to divide ourselves in two, that is
to say, that we are able to observe our states. If this division is
possible, if we are able to divide between the watcher and the watched
thing, we begin to be able to change the usual position. This is a way
to free one from the prison of oneself.
Regarding
being identified with life, as we are able to render attention towards
what we do then we will stop being identified. Life is a series of events
and states. It is not the things, people, the objects, but the events
that put these things, these people and these objects in relation to
us at certain times. An event gathers the elements; it puts them in
movement and goes on.
We
have to see life as a series of events, not as a set of things, people
or mere visible objects. If you could contemplate the situation in which
you are involved as a particular kind of event, you would not be able
to identify with it and I remind you that, in order to do this, attention
and conscious effort are needed. All events are repeated. There are
only a determined number of events that can happen for each person.
Life extracts our energy by these old and repeated events, which we
have always identified with. If we could internally separate from an
event with which we have identified all our lives, trying to isolate
it and to name it, we would be freer from it.
A
great contrast between the mechanical life and "the life-work " must
be in this work. We must enter life and pass through as many dramas
and comedies as possible in order to gather great material at the centers,
a fullness of experiences, otherwise the necessary contrast between
life and this work is not possible. A person who does not know anything
about life sees no difference between life and the work, lacks of contrast
or tension of opposites in him. That is to say, he takes life and the
work on the same scale.