The
idea that we are not one is one of the most important ideas of the Work.
We do not have a permanent "I". Each thought, feeling, sensation or
desire is an "I" who believes to be the only existing person. None of
these "I´s" are connected and each one depends on changes of the external
circumstances. In addition, between each I, impenetrable defences called
buffers exist, which separate these sub-personalities from each other.
Gurdjieff
says that one of our greater mistakes is to live the illusion on being
one. He writes: "these "I´s" change as quickly as the thoughts, the
feelings and the moods and the mistake is to consider that we are one
and always the same; in fact we are always a different person, different
from whom we were a little while ago ".
Our
thoughts and desires live totally separate and independent. According
to Gurdjieff, we are made up of thousand of separate "I´s", often unknown,
exclusive and mutually hostile between themselves.
The
changing of "I´s" is controlled in an accidental way by external circumstances.
There is nothing in us able to control the change of these "I´s", mainly
because we are not aware of it. Each separate "I" calls itself "I""
and acts in name of the totality of the person. This explains why we
often make decisions that we rarely carry out. Self-observation exercise
will give us the test that generally we think, feel, move and respond
to the stimulus that act in us without being aware what is happening
inside. This observation of oneself is the main effort required in the
Fourth Way. The student must create a "watcher I", which observes with
objectivity its internal activity.
It
is extremely difficult to develop an objective space inside that can
observe without judgment, but which is also our main way to break our
mechanical conduct and the hypnosis in which we are in.